As I reflect on my life

It is this that I note:

I have mourned, endured strife

I have laughed, I have cried.

I have loved, oh yes!

Too much some may say,

But I have loved all the more

And given it freely away.

I have offered myself fully

Without fear and without force,

My soul still bears the scars

But I don’t live with that remorse.

I have watched as loved ones leave

Unplanned and too soon,

Felt the sting of that rejection

With only time as the cure.

I have danced in the summer rain

Said “I do” under blooms and bows,

Cuddled my blessed newborn

And kissed her perfect fingers and toes.

I have started “from scratch”

– one too many times!

But built bigger and stronger

A life to be lived longer.

And now as I look back

I see who I’ve become:

A woman of substance,

A woman who has won.

~ Sherrie Dyer

Barbed blanket

You hold me ransom with your words
Tease with me with your false innocence
Pull me in with your fake sincerity

How foolish am I to believe what you say?
Yet here I am the joker again
Realising that it is impossible for anyone to love me

I’ve lost my way so many times
In this maze of inner turmoil and grief
That I no longer know how to navigate the pain

Life is so fleeting, gone so quick
Is it wrong to chase a rare shooting star?
To want that one moment of happiness?

I know now that not every hand offered
Is a hand that is unselfishly given
Yet I took yours willingly

When the light fades – and it always does
The darkness penetrates
Taking the dream away

And I’m left alone again
Knowing that it has always been me
That stupidly gives another piece of myself away.

~ Sherrie Dyer

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