Owner of hearts

I have lived for so long
Waiting to share my life with you
Longing to the day
We would become one

I believed your whispered confessions of love and loyalty
Yet I shy from the realisation that
Your words have been clever stories
Laced with deception and betrayal

My heart grows weary with
Every shed tear and false hope
For you cannot love
You know not how to

Your love is only that which is lustful and selfish
You toy with emotions as a destructive child
Yet weep when you acknowledge
That I am gone

I am a victim to your predatory skills
Wanting nothing more than your touch
Willing you to love me again
But I know that cannot be

You have already left me
Alone and wounded
In my own private darkness
Of despair and rage

Alone with the memories
Of what could’ve been
Alone with the damaged anger that
Slowly fuels me to awake to the present

Yes, I will not continue to retrace this cycle
But I know that you will want me again
And in this future
It will be I to tell tall tales …

~ Sherrie Dyer


Your confused emotions
Rattle me
Your insincerity
Further fuels my insecurity

What was I thinking?
Why did I hope for more?
Why did I believe you?
Why did you abuse my fragility?

I must see you day-on-day
But I want to forget!
I want to forget!
I want to forget!

Leave me to my hurt
Only in my private room of pain
Am I alone and finally,
I will be able to heal again

Go away
Go home
Let me be
Stop adding to my anxiety

Give me the truest gift
You could possibly give me:
Give me peace
To erase you from memory

~ Sherrie Dyer


I feel used
Thrown out like a piece of trash
Good enough one day
Insufficient the next

Of course I knew better
I knew who you were
But I allowed myself to believe
That somehow I was different

In my own desire to be loved
I opened myself up to abuse
And became merely a filler
For your own insecurities

So who should I be angry with?
Myself? You?
I know the answer
No matter how hard the truth

It’s me, it’s always been me

~ Sherrie Dyer

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